Shiiiit dude, last night was fucking crazy. My dad hates me because I came home LATE the other night and he found out by my stupid grandmother. -_- Urgh, fml. My daddy said he couldn’t look at me anymore. He thought I was out having sex, which really I was out wifff my friends at a diner. Like what the fuckkk, man. It’s whatever, I wish my dad can still see me as his little girl. :( Oh well, shiiiit happens. /: I still love him, but fuck it. I don’t care, I hope he’ll forgive me by the time I move back into the house…. -_- FML I hate myself.

There’s this guy I’ve met in sixth grade. We used to hate each other wiff a passion. It was basically like an on and off kind of friendship thing. It was really friggin odd. -_- So, we worked things out likee about 2 years ago, I believe. Then, I started to fall for him last summer and he fucked me over, big time. Two months later, I started to talk to him again. We were talking like friends, nothing more, ya’no. So anyways, then somehow months later, we gave each other a chance to try to work things out. I’m really happy I made the right choice. We’ve been THROUGH alot since Middle School.

This time, I’m making a promise to myself. I plan on keeping him, I hurt him once and I regret it so much. It happened like almost two weeks ago. /: It was a pain in the ass. I was just trying to protect myself, but in reality, I knew it was a mistake. I was scared and you know, when you’re in love, people makes a mistake just to be “perfect.” No one in the world is perfect. So anyways, back to my love life, haha, well I’m going to give him my all. We’re not even going out yet, but we will by September.! That is when he is getting his license. :p <3

The other night, when my baby and I were talking, I got really scared. We were talking about where we’re going to college at and I don’t even know..I’m scared if we’re dating by the time it’s 2011, I might even lose him and there is no way in HELL, I’m going to let him go. I wouldn’t even know what to do. I was nervous and worried. Of course, I would act all paranoid or whatsoever, because I’m in love with him and HONESTLY he is my FIRST true love…he is my one and only. I can trust him more than ANYBODY.

I don’t know, I just wanted to let everyone know about my love life. It’s amazing and I’m grateful to have him in my life. I love you, babyboy. <3